Colossians 1:13-14 says that God "has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins."

This is the darkness from which He saved me:

A hurricane of emotion assaulted me today.  A cyclone of torment swept me away.  I ventured from safety & dared to step outside.  I was vulnerable, exposed and bare before all eyes.

Clouds of rejection came rolling in. Showers of "un" pelted my skin.

Unwanted, unloved, unworthy, despised.

"You're a burden and undesirable," the swirling storm cried.  I panicked & froze.  The words soaked through all my layers and drenched my soul.  I scanned the field, quickly, in hopes of a hole.

With nowhere to hide, I hardened inside. I willed all my anger to silence my cries.  I placed on my armor of hatred & pride.

"Bring it on, f/;@ing storm! Give it all you've got!"

"I've fought greater than you," I defiantly thought.

But then, in a moment, my defense is blown away. "We all know that I'm bluffing," I think with dismay.

Hopeless, self-loathing; I turn the anger within. Heavy darkness falls over me, my faithful, lone friend. The silence approaches, my comfortable norm. Shame rolls in with condemnation, the eye of every storm.